angry/transphobic binary cis people,
if you know non-binary trans people exist, you may think we are weird/gross/delusional. you may think that non-binary trans people are unnatural– constructed/synthesized/wrong. you probably can’t imagine being trans, can’t imagine feeling that your body doesn’t always belong to you. you probably don’t know what it’s like to experience something like motion sickness because too many people think you’re something you’re not. maybe you’ve never attempted/considered suicide because you knew that you couldn’t do it anymore– the lies were chewing you up with their yellow teeth while the people around you smiled whitely.
know what? i can’t imagine being a binary cis person; i’ve never been a binary cis person. i don’t know what it’s like to have my gender appear on my passport/my birth certificate/application forms. i’ve never seen a movie featuring characters of my (non-binary) gender. there are no bathrooms/change rooms for people of my gender and i can’t imagine knowing what bathroom/change room to choose. i don’t know what it would be like to be proud of my assumed reproductive capabilities instead of being revolted by them.
i can’t imagine being you, but i believe that you are fucking real. seriously. i believe that you are who and what you say you are– i have nothing to go on but your word and i might as well take it. i believe that you, like me, sleep/love/fail/fuck/shit/eat/strive/change/win/die and that you deserve respect.
i also know that i am fucking real and that transness feels pretty natural to me. my word is all you have to go on; why not just take it? whose word would you take instead?
if you have anything to say about this, write me a letter. i want to know you with all my bones.
sincerely, mx. punk
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k, you can tell me what you think even if you aren’t an angry, transphobic cis person. i think cis people probably DO experience a lot of the same things (non-binary and binary) trans people experience– tell me about it. let’s confabulate, peoples.